Personal.
Being a minority is difficult. Since realizing that I was completely incapable of lowering myself to the ignorant, inconsiderate, fake individuals that I have previously associated with over time, I’ve been extremely fucking lonely. And i try to tell myself to make new friends who are decent, real people, but it’s not that simple. Whenever I’ve attempted to make friends I always feel somewhat like the outsider, the inconvenience and the one that’s always accidentally left out of plans/arrangements. I’m too scared to make friends because I’m not the kind of person who can drift in and out of friendship circles and be okay with a new best friend/group of friends every week. I need something genuine, and if it’s not, then I don’t want anything at all, and that’s what’s lead me to the position I’m in now because nobody seems to be “real”. To put it simply, I don’t have many friends, I’m really fucking lonely, and I don’t see any of that changing.
